In the last four years, I divorced, moved home to Ananda, fell in love, remarried, bought a house, had a baby, lost a job, got a new job, sold a house and joined Ananda’s Sevaka order (membership). It’s enough to make your head spin.
Sometimes it’s good to stop and think, “am I still me?” “Who am I?” I like to think that my friends, the ones who don’t see me everyday, would recognize me. That I can still find common ground with those who I was close with in my recent past. That’s one thing about living so far from urban civilization – you can get a little out of touch.
Balancing my community life, spiritual life and home life is consuming. I floss. exercise. meditate. eat. work. play. pay bills. clean. It takes 30 minutes by car to reach the nearest drug store. Going out to eat is a major production. My commute takes a whopping 5 minutes, which means I hear about 1 story on NPR before I turn off the engine and enter my office. With a full time job crunched into 25 hours and a toddler nipping at my heals, there’s very little time for current events or catching up with friends that I don’t happen to see everyday. I’m not complaining, just expressing how easy it is to lose touch with…EVERYTHING and everyone.
But, I still have a ways to go. I still have to work hard to balance my life. And, at times, I still wonder if people recognize that I am still me – just a new version…Gita 2.0. Sending love and light to all my friends around the world! You know who you are 🙂